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a day to remember..
it only 2:25 pm.. pero feeling ko, ok na matapos ang araw.. kumpleto na araw ko eh.. super saya ko.. i never thought id receive something like this.. i suppose this is one of the greatest gifts na natanggap ko sa buhay ko.. at di lang un.. it came from someone who is the last person i thought it would come from..
jevic.. jevic gave me an ARROVO bill.. hahaha.. i have always wanted one.. as in really.. i always have.. its a collector's item.. and i really want it.. and now i do.. thanks to you jevic..
what makes me so happy.. is the fact that this is the first time i did not have to work or toil for something that i want.. that it couild just come.. that a dream could just happen.. wow..
march 16, 2006.. di ko malilimutan ang araw na ito
kawawa naman.
This song's really lovely.
Have you seen her?
Did you see her pass this way?
What is it about her?
Is it her eyes? Maybe
But I'm not so sure
Is it her laughter?
Something I've never heard before
So many questions but the answers are so few
All I really know is, I love you
So many questions but the answers are so few
All I really know is, I love you
What is it about her
That makes me stare
That makes me wanna run my fingers through her hair
Will I find her? Maybe
But I'm not so sure
Will she be mine?
I can't stand this searching any more
Since the only time I see her near
Is when I close my eyes
Should I keep it that way
The only way I can make her stay?
"So Many Questions" by Side A
I can still remember, when I was in grade school, that every time that there are no classes, I would jump for joy. The day, supposedly for studies, would then be spent in playing games and watching TV. I would drown myself in laughter and I would not stop until I can no longer breathe. There was not a day that I was not happy when there are no classes.
This morning, I was ready to go to UP. I had my green Hang Ten shirt on and I had my hair gelled for the first time since five months ago. I was looking forward to coming to our math 100 when my parents came home, supposedly to pick me up, and told me that there are no classes.
I did not jump for joy nor did I scream on top of my voice. I knew full well that the news had just broken me. I tried not believing but how can I loose confidence on my parents. Every beat of my heart started to bear pain for I know a part of it had just been wounded. I did not know where to go but my feet dragged me towards the TV. I looked for the morning news and I have come to know that this day is ruined.
When I have come to know her, I learned that in a week there exists only two days, TF. Yes, Tuesdays and Fridays and nothing more. It is in these days that I get to see her eyes turn drowsy in our calculus class. It is in these days that I get to sit next to her. It is in these days we get to chat. It is in these days I get to walk next her. These are the only days in my week.
I told her through text that there are no classes. Instead of placing a smiley, I ended the text with a crying frown. She was happy to know that she does not have exams in econ 101. I am so happy for her that she has more time to study but I pity myself for losing Friday, a day I have held on so much. She had no words of comfort for me and I don’t expect any. I don’t want her to feel this because I want her to be happy. I suppose she is right now and because of that I should be as well. I’ll try.
Yeah, you are right. I am not in the position to do so and that what I have planned is wrong. Hard to believe but I should and that I must. Take what is only given and give only what is wished to be taken. There is no point in holding on to selfishness for greed is a sin.
Now that I have not, it hurts. The day would pass with not a word. The night is coming and I feel no presence other than myself. The walls around me are of no use for I feel the cold winds outside. I shiver in this corner with my arms only for cover. I hear nothing else but my own panting. I am alone.
Why do you keep telling me this? Do you feel my pains? Do you know all my thoughts? Have you heard what the call me? Have you seen what they have done to me? Oh! You do. Why then do you confuse me? Should not you help me for you understand me?
I cannot quiet down your voice for it is like my heart beating. I feel you like you are closer than being next to me. You have stolen my courage and robbed me of my strength. Free me now from you.Am I bound to you? For all eternity? Leave me! Give me back my cause. I am no coward. I will act by myself. I do not need you council. I can do this for I know and I am. You cannot stop me.
I told her
I tried looking at her eyes as I spilled my guts in every word I say but to no avail. I was looking for redemption yet what I got was a pierce right through my heart. I thought looking at her could give me courage yet when I saw her beauty I have come to realize that I am lost. My heart was pounding and I feel the rush of blood through my veins and I cannot turn back now. I must go on even if nothing is coming out right. I have to.
Last night, thoughts of her kept me awake, fueled my mind, and gave me strength. Her words are the reason why I continue in this losing battle. It is the memory of her face that makes me want to wake up in the morning. In her presence I am addicted. Tell me please. Why is it now that I am with her, I am lost?
Five years of public speaking. One competition after another. One victory up until the next. My feelings have clouded my thoughts and my heart now speaks louder than my mind. Falling out of reason and falling in love is where I am now. Soon, I know I’ll hit the floor face first yet crave for the wind against my falling body.
All I ask is chance to show her this feeling. All I want is to let her see how strong this emotion is. I ask not for her to feel the same for she does not have to. I will carry her in my arms and all she has to do is to let me. Let me.
My heart is now at her mercy and God I come to you with all the faith I possess. Help me now for there I see none from others. I thank you for the moments you have given me with her but I am sorry for I am now acting to have more. Let it be your will that she finds her way to me for I will not cease in taking care of her. You have my word Lord.
Elsin, this song's for you
Take off, both your, shoes and clothes, I'll follow.
Undo, corkscrew, drink from the top of a broken bottle.
Lately we're running out of time, aren't we?
Smoking, often, and calling out our guilty pleasures,
Let's keep, talking, anything to stop clockwatching.
Lately we're running out of time, aren't we?
Crazy for running all the time, m-m-m-m-maybe.
Let's forget we're running out of time.
I'm off like an airplane,
I'm licking your postage stamp again.
I'm using my right brain and I'm praying the weight will crash.
Who knew I'd come/cum so fast.
Well so what if a two pump chump can't last.
I finally made it to three, and I foreclose a five minute, fantasy.
I'll surely fight making love on economy/on account of me (not sure).
No jumping, conclusions,
I don't think there's no solution,
Let's get, backwards,
And forget our restless destination.
Let's live in this moment just this time, could we?
Just take one moment of our time m-m-m-m-maybe.
Let's forget we running out of time.
I'm off like an airplane,
I'm catching my second wind again.
I'm using my left brain
And I'm righting all my wrongs.
I'm yearning to turn you on.
I've been working on getting you off, so get on board.
Well how can I guess by the subject of the best predicate that's left unsaid when the matter is too delicate.
My loneliness is evident.
And its you,
You're running through my mind and it makes me c-c-crazy cra-cra-crazy.
La la la
La la la la la
La la la (ooooooo, so amazing)
La la la la la la
La la la
Laaaa oh oh
Laaaaaa lo oh oh oh
Lady, dreamer, you might be the soundest sleeper,
Tonight, sleep tight, and build your nest upon my shoulder.
-Clockwatching by Jason Mraz